fear: better days
fear: better days
Fear has immobilised me
Fear has captured me and taken me hostage
He found me with my guard down
enjoying life, happy for the first time
and told me it was never going to last
Fear has made me
incapable of completing my day to day tasks
incapable of functioning
Incapable of existing
instead i worry
worry about school and tests and assignments
about friend family and relationships
about mortality purposes abs meaning
Fear has immobilised me
and there is nothing I can do but look for hope
there is nothing i can do but convince myself that
better days are ahead
days where waking up is the start of a new adventure
and not the end of my peace
when taking care of myself isn’t a chore
because i deserve to feel good
days where sadness is a distant memory
existing only so that i can
appreciate how far i’ve come
part of me feels i’m delusional
dreaming about better days
but
maybe that’s okay
maybe it’s okay that my only escape us to romanticise the fire
maybe it’s okay that for the time being
all i can do is cope
because maybe
better days are ahead
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