Confusion

Confusion

Confusion in my head

and thoughts as deep as the sea

late night thinking, steady follows me

and when the day begins to end my much needed sleep begins to suspend and those thoughts

they take off running around my mind until dawn breaks

and I realize that it’s almost time for me to start yet another day

No clear direction of what I want or what path I want to take

Thinking keeps me up all night and wide awake

and no clear thoughts they’re all just blurry

all my feeling and thoughts are blurry

And I don’t know why but I feel lost and in a hurry

in a hurry causing me to worry

Can I change this confusion and turn it into a direction

Because I made a lot of decisions without being able to see a clear path or intersection

but I know im still young so i'm not afraid to admit to this confession because many won’t

sometimes I feel lost in my head because nothing is clear

I spend hours wrapped in my puddle of confusion which brings on a great amount of fear

I made a lot of decisions that now that my mind slowly clears

I can see that a lot of things i’ve done have lead me to the place I call here

here being my current state and status in life

I see that I may not need some of these things in my life anymore or want so badly to escape

them

But out of a state of confusion I convinced those things that yet again I needed them

As the fog clears and my path shines through, I begin my journey to picking up the pieces of

things confusion left behind

Because for a second I felt as if I was losing my mind

And you know what there’s so much debris

and yet I rather be picking it all back up than back in the fog

where I didn’t know me

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